I’ve just written an e-mail to CT. Thanks everyone for your advice. I feel a little relieved and think I can sleep now. My only anxiety now is waiting for her reply. Is it weird that I almost feel as if the best response would be no response. Some how I feel fine now after saying what I truly felt and nothing matters now. If she responds negatively or positively I will most likely just become anxious and dwell on her words. I’m independent of her now and I’m scared her response will change that.
Here is the letter. It’s a bit random but I’m happy with it: