I just waanted to let everyone know that the look inside feature on amazon.com takes effect on March 11th of 2011. It take abot 6 weeks from the day you release it to go into print and mine was Jan. 28th of 2011! I just wanted everyone to know that.

I still am struggling with a lot, the ocd, anxiety, depression, eating disorders, and just pulling inwards. I wish I was more active for I really need to be, sometimes we just want to give up, but we cant. I find as I am getting older, and being in the house, this is where my problem first occured at about eight years old or so, anyway more are added on. I never had the panic attacks, the elusive thoughts of hurting myself ecetra, but now it is moreso! I have found something that I love to do which is writing and hope to be able to continue it, for I love to write!

The highlight of my life is my new grandson James-Alexander, and I am trying to make it an effort to stay strong, and to care for myself so I can be around to see him grow! He is that spark of light God has sent my way, so I can hang on to! Things will get better for all of us, for life has many black clouds, and storms, but the sun shines though if you just hang on long enough. Use your mings to make things come out tru for the better, than the worse. Use positive thinking, think of yourself in the future, of your dream, and take steps on how to get there. Even if it is only small baby steps, keep trying, put all your effort in it. Find a passion with something you love to do, and surround yourself with those people around you! They say our thoughts cause our realities, and about parallel lives, and universes! Sometimes it all gets to muc for us in our heads, and we tend to go in a negative direction, why not change paths, and go into a psitive direction. Let's all try that together, it may not be easy at first, but I know we cal all do it! Take care, and God bless! P.S I love these smily guys!

Pretty soon here in Missouri will be that great Sring weather, I love truck rides when it is like this, and the sound of nature, and the beginning of a garden, and everything new to the ground on this earth! Hang on to those thoughts, for they will carry you through! Have a wonderful, and blessed day everyone!