i have never done anything like this before but im going to give it a shot. im a recovering addict i went from smoking weed, to taking pills, to opietes, to tweaking. i am only 18 years old and i have been six months sober as of this month of off everything. i moved my my home 6 months ago where i was homeless and doing what ever icould do to make moneyand started living at my aunts father in laws house. my first 3 months of my recovery i was taking care of a 75 year old man whom i found dead one morning i still cant get the image out of my mind. since then i graduated my out patient rehab which going to rehab was someting my father wanted me too do even though he still cant talk too me with out making comments about me sticking a straw in my nose or twirling the pearl. which is hard in itself to face. it seems that since ive gotten out of my rehab i have been deoressed and hating my life. dont get me wrong many good things have come my way since i have gotten off the drugs i have a roof over my head and a job now but it seems like i also have a ball and chain around my ankle and i cant seem to catch a break with people. im living with my aunt now who i know wants the best for me but she calls me her "project" and talks about how she will fix me. as if she cant except me and my flaws. she wants me to be like her children who are close enough to perfect and im just not. she wants me to forget everything that i have done and who i am and i just cant. but i am trying to be this imagine of perfect because she is the only family that i have that willl actually look me in the face without disgust in thier eyes. but i am unhappy and i want too talk to my aunt and i want nothing more then her to realize that yes i ama drug addict and not just when she finds it okay for me tooexcept the fact that iam. i feel stuckin a cage likea bird with no wings. im more miserable and fearful now then iever was tweaking and i dont know what too do or howto handle it. i need help.