hello all, new here and not sure how it works, but I'm gonna try my best, the same as I am with this carzy OCD. found a neet site (and maybe you all have also) called mood juice, has a booklet on things to try and get my act together. I have had ocd for at least 35 of my 50 years. and I dont like it, I have tried many things, counselors, meds etc. i am on a mild dose of prozac rite now and still take a lorazepam every day, some days are better than others, and latly belive it or not (I really hope i dont jinx myself here) I have been feeling better, because I have finally taken the step to do my best and face my darn fears and try and get over this shitty feeling. it is a big step, and it has taken me a long time to realize that it is a leap of faith, I am religious I belive in God as evryone should belive in a higher power, no matter what it may be. but I had to take it, and it sucks, but ever so slowly it is making me feel better, a little easier to cope, I want it to go away over night as we all do, but we know it wont. took me 35 years to get here, I hope it doesnt take me 35 to get away from it, but if it does I am going to do my best to try every day, little by little, thats what my problem is I want it to go away now, but I know it wont, I am sticking to my guns and stopping things slowly but surly, yes i fall back some days (have really just started trying the past week) but I pick myself back up and push with all I have in me, and I have found thats what it takes, take the leap of faith and try, try yourhardest, it sucks, i meanreally sucks but you haveto stick to your guns, stick to your decision and follow it threw. I have gone so many places on the web, read Edna Foas book, Dr. Phillipson articals (both are very good to) Jeffery Schwartz, you name it, I am sure there aremore and any one is more than willing to tell me others they have found.I will soon get back on and explain my ocd, it is the fear of having my children, family member or friend be hurt or harmed if i dont do certain rituals, yeah the stepping on the cracks, thinkiong bad things etc etc etc. you know the drill I'm sure. no matter what form we have it all sucks. like I said not sure how long this will take I have been told months to years, but I am goiung to give it me all, and thats why I am here to hopefully get some extra support. I hope I have not rambled to much but I needed to get some of it out. Thanks All