so im an 18 year old kid, ive been sent to live with my aunt and uncle in michigan, ive been here for about 6 months. i used to live in san diego, california. i was a stick up kid rollin with crips, i had other homies too but i was lost in my own world. i only cared about myself. i started drinking when i was 9, then it went to mary jane, then coc, thizz, lean, acid, shrooms. i was dealin coc and thizzwhen i was 13, made more money than i could spend. my best friend died when i was 14, then i turned 15 like 3 months later, i started poppin xanax and norco's everyday along with smokin and drinking. i went to juvie when i was 16 and it all went completely downhill from there. when i got out i started doing H and meth and lost about 30 pounds, tested positive for meth went back to juvie for a month then i got out, found out another two homies got buried when i wasgone for a month, then idid the same shit over again this time it was 6 months, during that 6 months i found out my girlfriend was pregnant.. when i gotout this time i tried to stay straight but i found out she got an abortion, started doing heroin again,thats when my parents decided to send me to live with my aunt and uncle. I basically tried to kill myself before i went to the airport. i was on H, norcos, xanax and drank a half a bottle of 151, i was hoping by the time i got to the airport i was dead but i wasnt.. i got onto the plane and slept the 7 hour flight to detroit, my uncle was waiting there for me or else i would have left. i thought i wouldnt have made it to 18 but i did, and now im trying to put the jig saw puzzle of my life back together.. i just dont know how to do it without drugs, i find myself wishing i was high for everything that happens to me these days. im trying to get off probation which i ve been on for 2 years now, trying to find a job but i cant get one because of my record. but you know what.. i can say i happy to be alive now. im glad i didnt die, i would have misssed so much of my life and i would of been remembered as a drug addict that OD'd. so now im just trying to stay sober and get moving forward in my life, im taking baby steps, but im sumwhat getting there. im back in school, i got my permit, i would have never been able to do that if i was still robbing and using. now im just looking for support, and some one to talk to right now because my uncle has me on lockdown and i dont get out that much unless im going to school or the gym or working with him. so anyone that could support, or advice, or just to talk to. im your guy.