I have been doing a lot of thinking lately about how good my life has become and how far away from that I was not long ago. Not only is that amazing in itself but I have been able to share that with the love of my life. We have been through so much together… and that doesn't even discribe it well. We have literally lived two lives together. I have been thinking about how different everything is in our life. It's crazy because I always believed we could be different people but I didn't know how. It's unbelievable that I had no idea that there was a way out. I am so grateful that not only I found a way but that he did too. Let me clarify that we did it separatly… we had to, we could worry about anyone but ourselves for awhile. I truly believe that we wouldn't have made it unless we did it alone. I would never recommend anyone to stay and try to work things out as a newcomer. If things are meant to be, they will be. I am blessed that I have someone who truly knows me and loves me no matter what. The biggest lesson I learned is that the relationship does not make me who I am. Somedays I could just burst from the pure joy that I have and knowing that it is only through God for sparing my life and NA for showing me a new way to live. I am more in love with Jay everyday and it is only one of the many blessings I have recieved. I can only do that because I learned to love myself first and pt down the needle! I thank God everyday for giving us both a chance to do something different.:biggrin: