- I hope this story gives someone else the courage to tell their truth. I have a loving and supportive family that would do almost anything for me. But I haven’t told everyone what happened to me when I was a child. Only person that knows about this is my mother. I was sexually molested by a family member when I was a child. I have lived with that feeling of guilt and confusion ever since it happened. The crazy part is the person who did this to me, was also a child when it happened. They also had some anger and troubles they were dealing with as well. They told me to never tell anyone. I didn’t for about 15 years. I felt deep sadness once I told my mom about this repressed memory. I felt it was only right not to tell anyone because I thought I was protecting them the same way they always were protective of me. That’s why I thought I would be okay if I got high and reconnected with this person. One of the biggest mistakes I’ve ever made. This person sexually harassed me. When I confronted them about it, they told me that they didn’t remember and “don’t take it to heart”. I suffered a mental breakdown after that. I left my job and almost went completely broke …. until. I found a therapist to talk to about my issues. She was very understanding and compassionate. I also got another job doing one the activities that gives me a sense of relief. I started feeling better about myself. I lost 60lbs and started building up my strength by lifting weights. I try to distract myself and find different hobbies to enjoy such as meditation, listening to music, and reading. I still have my ups and downs dealing with anxiety, but I feel so much better releasing that repressed memory that had a hold on me for a long time.
