OCD is a terrible thing.  It has contributed to me washing out of two separate jobs, as well as a constant burden of guilt and shame for (often, imagined) wrongs done to others.  It won't allow me to function, I obsess for the better part of the day, every day.  Even writing this blog is a challenge.[br][br]I'm what others call a "Pure O" obsessive.  Yes, I have compulsions just like others in the Pure O category – I seek reassurance, I withdraw from society, I constantly ruminate on these thoughts.  But at the core is an obsessive mind delivering blows on a constant basis. [br][br]My latest kick is sleeping in to absurd hours of the mid-afternoon, staying awake for only 8-10 hours a day.  The way I figure it, if I'm sleeping, I'm not obsessing.  Although there's evidence this isn't exactly true – I'll often wake up in a panicked state with a new obsession on my mind that wasn't there before I slept.[br][br]I'm feeling more and more hopeless.  The thoughts are becoming more powerful, harder to resist, and they are bringing increased feelings of guilt, also.  I am eating less.  I am losing weight.  My right knee is constantly bouncing in an anxious way, this has been going on for weeks.[br][br]I've been trying to read "Brain Lock" but my obsessions distract me from the task every time.  I thought reading was supposed to be a coping skill!  Speaking of coping skills, I really don't have many.  My mom tells me to distract myself somehow, but what ends up happening is that my OCD distracts me from the distraction, and I'm back at square one.  Today I am what I call "in between" – like jobs, only replace jobs with obsessions.  I've been able to beat a couple of obsessions, but my mind is constantly looking for the newest way to punish itself.  I fear what that will be. [br][br]Does anyone have any helpful tips of good coping skills that I could use to help my OCD?  I'm desperate for help.

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  1. subtlefighter 14 years ago

    I've found it's helpful to actually try to fight the thoughts less and more accept that they're there.  Because trying to fight them becomes an obsession in itself, and the more you try to fight it, the more you actually think the thoughts!  Sometimes in my day a thought will come up, and I'll just think, "Oh that's my OCD", and try to place little importance on whether it's there or not and shrug it off.  I've found that actually helps to reduce the number of OCD thoughts I have rather than thinking, "Oh my God I have to stop thinking this!".

    Hang in there, and I'm wishing you the best 🙂

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  2. sammyd 14 years ago

    Hey guy

    I know how you feel beleive me. I have really bad obsestions too, i fine that somtimes i think i could deal with just the compuoltions but the obsesstions can be so hard. The horrible thoughts, them just not getting the f*** out of your head. Its tough, i feel that i have good periods and then bad and then really bad, then ok. There are ups and downs. Right now i seem to be doing ok, with the obsesstions but the compultions are now worse. It like you can't win! uhhgggg!

    Don't feel hopless, your not alone ok. 

    Alright now, im not so great  with helpful coping tips. But i will try. Anytime you get a horrible thought, or obsesstion get say out loud or to yourself "No your not fucking with me today, Im in charge, im the boss and i call the shots" Then jump right to thinking or doing somthing you like. The thought or obsesstion aren't real, "its not me its my OCD" Thats another good one to say pluse its true.

    Get back to me, i hope iv helped.

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