I came out of residential rehab in March. Sadly as a result of my addiction, my wife and I live miles apart but still see each other once or twice a month. I live temporarily with my Mum again just whilst I get my life and finances back in order.
I think my biggest struggle has been with isolation and loneliness. Loneliness isn’t just a physical state for me though. My mum and her partner are always around. I just do not have any friends that share my new interests anymore and I can feel a deep sense of loneliness even if i’m around a group of people. I still love and keep in touch with my friends but they are all heavy drinkers and it is what they do in their spare time. Perhaps in the future i can still join them in their plans just minus the alcohol. I’m just not quite ready for that I don’t think.
It is almost as if I need a dating site but strictly for friendships! I haven’t tried but i can imagine it isn’t easy to meet people with genuine intentions online. (My wife and i are still very much in love and plan to live together in the future at some point when we are ready).
Diary keeping is a recovery strategy that I’ve found has helped me and that I learned in recovery. I’m hoping i can use this blogging tool as my diary and therefore a useful well-being strategy. I’m also very keen to hear from anyone who can relate to my situation in any way. I have always been caring in my personal life and as part of my career so I am very happy to give advise to anyone too who feels down and just like chatting.
I wish you all the best.