Tonight I am begging myself, please stop. Please don’t let yourself slip away again.
Perhaps a good life is possible later, but not if you keep getting dragged down in excuses and shame. Find something good, please. Stop doing this to yourself. Remember this feeling, this bite of need that has no satisfaction. Remember how far down that hole goes. Walk around it, eyes up. Keep walking a different path. Please.
Find a new way to carry the pain.