yeah I haven\'t been on here in a long while. But It is nice to know that I\'m not the only one with an anxiety disorder.

I don\'t know, its like honestly I\'ve been doing pretty good for the past year. I\'m on a new med w/ a new doc and its pretty effective i guess. Actually I\'ve been taking it rather irregularly but anyway.

Plus I guess its been pretty nice to find new ways of dealing with the anxiety. Its always sortof sucked having to deal with it on my own and now that I\'ve kinda faced it \'X\' amount of years its really settled down.

Its really surprising how exercise and activity can help. Really, for me, its been about balancing things out. Cant be active all the time. Some insense and tea is good too once and a while.

Really I don\'t really think about it all or try to not think about it. If that makes any sense. I actually had a bit of a anxiety fit the other night which wasnt dealt with too well heheh. I pretty much just paced around and got aggrivated a bit. But it went away eventually. Pretty sure it was just my solitude prior that caused it.

but i know i\'m jumping around a bit. I know nothings perfect but what it pretty much boils down to (most days) is just that it is what it is.

And again thanks for all of you who are apart of this site. When i found it I was pretty relieved to know it wasnt just me. Words tend to not bring much justice to how life is in general but uhh yeah. Anyway, thanks.

Oh and one other thing thats kinda been important to me. Over the years It\'s become more and more apparent that things just don\'t make much sense heheh. And I\'m cool with that. I don\'t think life is suppose to make sense anyways.