There should be a suicidal support group. I feel like it’s only a matter a time before I can’t take myself anymore.
It’s so hard to deal with being so bipolar. On one hand I genuinely feel like I shouldn’t be here and on the other hand I feel excited to enjoy life. This sucks and I need support.
I look at my body and i just think……”why me?”
I feel my soul and I think….”why me?”
I want to die bc i can’t fix myself and I know this to be true. And I have nobody to cry to. It’s so hard to talk to people bc I’m in soooo much pain emotional and physically. Like I don’t ever expect people to make me feel better but I don’t trust people to not betray me in some way shape or form(aka make me feel worse). I just feel like I would rather not try. It’s not worth the disappointment. I conclude that there is no safety in this world…..at least my portion of this world.
Sad and Depressed and Lonely and Angry