Well, I must say that being cautiously optimistic has been the right way to handle being on Ritalin. I feel really good! But again, I won't get the full effect until a few days from now so I'll have to wait and see. But if everything goes right and stay feeling okay and don't get seriously anxious, we may have found an answer to getting me out of my depressive cycles! I'm so excited by that prospect! I don't know when the last time I felt normal was…

Zachary is making friends finally. I'm really glad. We're going to do something, maybe a sleep-over, with one of his new friends. His Mom and I get along well so this should be enjoyable. Hopefully his friend turns out to be a well-behaved kid. The boys are already making plans for what they'll do…lol. I'm so happy at this turn of events!

Wow do I feel much better! It's been a great day compared to the last 2 weeks of depression and bad thoughts. It's so hard to believe!

Anyhow I had a productive day. I got Zach signed up for summer camp and actually went and did the grocery shopping by myself. Then I came home and played around on the computer and journaled some more. I tried to take a nap, but that didn't seem to work out so well…I had nightmares about tornadoes and then being stuck in a schoolbus that was sinking…ugh, horrible. So the lesson in this is don't nap on Ritalin. By tonight it will be low enough in my system that I shouldn't have that problem.

There was one scary part to my day… I was waiting for Zach to get off the bus and the bus driver didn't stop! I started to freak out a bit because that meant he probably wasn't on the bus. But the bus has to come back by our house so I decided to be calm and wait. Luckily he did stop, he said he had been distracted and drove right by it. Phew!!! I was really starting to worry about where Zachary was! Being a parent can be so stressful sometimes, lol. You know how it is, the longer you wait for an answer the worse the worry becomes. I'm NOT looking forward to his teenage years. Maybe by then they'll come up with some way to locate a child by GPS wherever they may be! I know that works on cell phones…

It is really hot here today. 90 degrees in the shade with a south wind. Ugh. I'm going to have to wait till almost sundown to go on my bike ride for the day if I have any hope of it cooling off. Otherwise I'm going to cook. I was hoping for some more rain but it looks like that's not going to happen. Oh well. It would have cooled things off a bit.

I guess that's it from me for now but I just wanted to share the potential good news about the Ritalin!