When I was recently car shopping, I would pick cars like Aveos and Tiburons that are apparently absolute crap. They look cute and sporty on the outside, seems nice and reliable and comfy inside but turns out total crap.
Turns out I pick my men like I pick my cars. Not a good thing. Not at all. There was this guy, I mean nothing serious just ran into eachother a couple of times the last 2 weeks and talked kinda hit it off, and he seemed sweet. Turns out, as I learned, he says the exact same thing to another girl at the moment. Soo that was fun- but perfect timing because today was the day i was going to decide if i was going to let myself like him (i know how weird that sounds but im really weird) so I didn't!
I did end up crying but just because its like every time my desicion to remain alone is reinforced. I mean I know I can't stay with someone for very long before I just feel too much pressure or need or something from them, because your supposed to be able to lean on your girlfriend/boyfriend when you need them but apparently im not good with that. But I cried because I realised I wil always pick the wrong men, and break the right guys hearts. Sucks but true.
So im not hurt because of him but because it does kind of suck when you know its for everyones best interest that you stay alone but then see everyone else kind of get their happy ending and wondering why you can't handle it, like i mentally cannot handle having a romantic relationship it weighs on me almost physicaly drags me down.
Oh well, tears are dried im picked up its all good.