for starters id like to talk about my family.  me and my father were never close, so we don’t talk much he lives with me but we don’t talk to each other.  me and my mother are different.  she is bipolar, stubborn and i mean really stubborn, and selfish.  so sometimes she’s good then the net things don’t turn out well.  so about a year ago my mother found out I was self harming.. this as a large chapter in my life that day still gives me nightmares.  I come home from school and my mother is at the table she asks me to show my legs and my wrists.. I did as she said ” your an idiot”  my dad just so happens to walk in the door 5 mins later.  she tells him and he says ” you know what Emma your a pain in my ass”  he takes me back to my room and spanks me as if I were a child.. I’m in shock my head is turning.  he takes me outside and says “I’m gonna show u what my dad taught me.. hard work is the best punishment”.  he grabs a shovel with fiber glass all over it and tells me to dig a 7 by 5 foot whole in our FRONT yard.  he said I can come in when my hands are bleeding” unless u like it.”  my hands were bleeding so I went inside and my mother is yelling at me she took my bracelets and told me she wanted me to be humiliated in front of everyone at school.  I asked her how she found out.. she told me that the school saw and they called DHS and she told me I was a horrible person and that they would take away pyper ( 2 year old sis)  she lied. to make her look better. I found this out bc she made me find a way to help myself.so I said counseling. she took me their nd in our first visit she had to come in the room with u. the lady asked the same question as I . and she told her she saw them on me the night I was wearing a tee.  she still to this day will not admit.  anyway thats just another there is more I might post it in my nxt blog.

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