Hello and thank you to all who take the time to read this. This is a short intro to what I have been dealing with. I will write seperate blogs for each of the individual topics with more details and how the event has effected my life. After that I will write on what it has been like dealing with them all at the same time and what life is currently like for me on a daily basis.
What is the purpose of this blog? I have never been good at voicing my experiences/feelings in person. When I do try, I am often interrupted by the other person so they can talk about themeselves. Usually before I can get out a complete sentence. Guess that is what happens when you are the “friend that listens.”
Maybe this will give me the outlet I need. Also, I hope in some twisted way that it helps someone else in their struggles. Maybe you will read my blogs and you feel less alone because you relate to them. Maybe you will read them and be thankful your life isn’t as bad. Maybe your life was worse and you got through it somehow and can help me. Either way, here goes…
I got divorced, lost my house, car, job and my ability to get healthcare (that I still desperately need). My best friend died unexpectedly. To top it all off, while I was at my lowest, I got raped. Apparently there was a level lower than bottom that I still had to hit. All of this happened within a year.
To say I have been overwhelmed would be an understatement. I have NOT been making the best choices. I tried killing myself, but I screwed that up. So I am trying something different. Not that I haven’t tried other things… Things that I will mention at another time. Trying for me is not something I want to do, but I have obligations that I can’t ignore. So I MUST try.