I’ve never been able to open up to anyone without feeling like I’m being judged, brushed off, made fun of, or just attention seeking. I bottle everything up because when I try to communicate I feel sensitive. I don’t know who to trust anymore. Im also so unbelievably self aware and I eat away at myself trying to change every little thing I can about my personality. I see through everyone. When I get to know someone it’s like I can tell if they are as aware as I am, or if they are just stuck in their own fantasy of how life should be.