Things were going so well. I was feeling a little better despite the medication change and I had put my time to good use. I had a visit from a friend I hadn't seen in three years on Thursday, it had recently been her birthday so we decided to treat her to some chocs and a meal at our local chinese restaurant. we had a good time catching up and the meal was lovely.

Then the following day I felt good again and met up with my dad. together we went to the local Hobbycraft and bought some new arts and crafts stuff. I bought some paper new pastels and a Me to you card making kit along with a book on scrapbooking as I want to start one of my own.

Anyway so that was the weekend in general I went to my mums on sunday but wasnt feeling the high that I had over the previous days. I think things started to slip on Saturday.

Today however has been less than enjoyable. I got up expecting to see a new phone at my door but the order had been cancelled due to credit check issues, which we couldn't understand because we already have two contracts with the same company and all thier bills have been paid on time. So that put me on a bit of a downer anyway and then to add to it Steve's mum calls him downstairs and tells us that there is a high chance that his dad is going to be made redundant from his job and that we may have to sell the house as we can't afford to keep the house. This worries me alot as Steve's parents arent going to buy a house as big as this next time and there won't be room for us. Simple get a house of our own right? Wrong we don't have the funds for a house of our own. We get by with what we get now but we pay little rent and supply our own food. That's it. except for our phone and broadband bills. I just don't know what to do. my only thoughts is that I force myself into a job that I know will make me ill but I really don't want to do that.

Ugh This sucks 🙁