I knew he was married.

As trampy as that sounds, Truly I liked the way he made me feel. I felt wanted, for the first time in a VERY long time 🙁

He started acting differently towards me Sunday night when We worked together.

Ignoring me…basically avoiding me. He was being strange..what had I done? After half the night of feeling sick from the anxiety I got from him out of no where avoiding me and not talking to me like he normally does

.He pulled me aside. I sarcastically said "so your talking to me now? How nice of you" with a big sarcastic smile on my face.

I was nervous. He always makes me nervous and full of anxiety…Hes so tall compared to me….as he stood cross armed staring down at me like I was in trouble with his chin held high."I told my wife" he said finally after hoverig over me and starting down at me.

My heart stopped and fell to my stomach, like it normally does when I'm in an "oh shit" situation."I figured" I said under my breathe but loud enough so he heard me but others at work wouldn't."I told her we just kissed though" he said.

We did more then kiss…."she hates me" he held his head in this hands. But the tone in his voice was not sad. Not like she left him. Just sounded like "she will get over it, and they will be alright after awhile" I told him that it was fine and I told him he was going to regret the shit we did in the end from day one. I'm always right. I'm sorry. It's the truth though.

I looked at him and said "now will you stop acting like a fucking douche and be normal?! "Deep inside I still want him to be my friend….We were such cool friends before we started having sex.I didn't want that to end.

I pulled him to me and hugged him then i said "dude your still my fucking friend and I don't care, I told you that I didn't want things to be different between us after us both agreeing on not having sex anymore" he agreed and things felt like a weight had been lifted.

He actually smiled. He actually started acting like he normally did.

Maybe things will be ok.

Kinda nervous if his wife will come into work… I have no idea. :/