So today has been good so far. I have been back at my parents house for almost a week. We live where cell phone service only hits in certain places, and a hospital is atleast ten minutes away. I hate being this far away. I feel like m going to die when i have a pnic attack so i feel comfortable when im close to a hospital. I know that sounds crazy but i am out of my "safe zone" and i get nervous at the drop of a hat… I especially get nervous at night, which in turn becomes a panic attack… Then i feel like i cant stay at my parents hous, then i become sad, i cry and feel so depressed…………………………… I know everyone is different when they panic, and im so happy i found this website. However, i wish no one had this issue with panic attacks, but since we do im happy i found a place where i can talk to people. I was very ashamed of my panic attacks when i first started having them. i thought i was going crazy and people would look at me as if i were crazy… So i held it in. then after a few years i told people. i found some people looked at me crazy while others eigther knew what i was going through or wanted to know how i felt… Im glad i know have a place where no matter what day or time i can talk to someone… I can write down my feelings and no one think of me as crazy or weird…….. I want to say thank you for reading this and any comments are welcome and appreciated. ……………………………………………………………… Hopefully today will be a good day and i will not get nervous tonight at bed time…