I Have Suffered From OCD For 15 Years.
I Take Zoloft Everyday, I Have Tried Going To Therapy But Why Talk To Someone Who Still Really Doesnt Understand Even Thought They Have Studied OCD Very Well They Really Dont Understand What We Go Throught, And I Have Been Thinking About Going To An OCD Help Group, I Have Started To Work From My OCD Handbook Everyday.But I Still Constantly Think About Killing Myself Everyday Because I Suffer From OCD Sooo Much. OCD Is One Of The Most Torturing Disorders You Can Have It Torments You Till You Die. And There's Not A Moment In My Life Were I'm Not Thinking About My OCD. My OCD Is Very Sever, So Not Many People I Have Meet With OCD Have It As Bad As I Do. Since Its Hard For Me To Go School And Sit In A Class Room It Might Be Good For Me To Start Online Classes. I Hate It When I Hear People Say Oh I Might Have OCD Because I Do This And That Everyone Has Something Wierd They Do But We Happen To Have To Do It Everyday And It Brings Horriable Anxiety They Really Don't Fuckin Understand, They May Know What OCD Is But They Have No Idea What I Go Through Every Day!! And Not  Everyone That Has OCD Is A Checker Or A Clean Freak That's Like An OCD Myth. I Have HORRIBLE OCD And I'm Not A Checker! A Couple Of My Worst Symptoms Is When Ever I Hear Someone Cough, Sneeze, Snort, Burp, Anything Along Those Lines I Cover My Ears And Snort 2 Times Or Till It Feels Just Right. Also I HATE Feet If Someone Touches There Feet They Are Infected To Me I Cant Touch Them Let Them Touch Me Till There Hands Are Washed. I Can't Touch Door Knobs So I Have To Have People Open Doors For Me. I Have A Bottle Of Clorox Everywere Spray That I Spray Everything With, I Even Sprayed My Keyboard Before Typing This. I Also Do A Lot Of Things In Patterns. My OCD Has Gotten Out Of Control And I Really Need Help.
-Colleen Madeline Harrington.