Tomorrow I have therapy and part of me wants to go and the other part of me wants to run and hide in a corner. Tomorrow I am giving a list of my obsessions and compulsions in their entirety to her to look over. I know she isn’t going to judge me as she has told me she has heard it all, but not even my mother knows about it all and that’s huge since my mother and I rarely have secrets. There is going to be this other person in the world that knows things about me that I have never told anyone. I want to lie, I want to tell her that they are minor and all I do is count stuff. I want this woman to look at me and not see some nut case. I also want to get better and live a life where every moment isn’t consumed with the stuff I need to do or can’t get out of my head. I realize the only way for me to get better is for someone to give me the knowledge to help myself. I am not looking forward to tomorrow.
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Over tired and under appreciated!
mandy86, , OCD, Anxiety, Career, Depression, Medication, OCD, Relationships, 1
I don't even really know what to write about. I havn't been on here now in quite some time....
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Iron sharpens Iron
ktbothum, , OCD, Relationships, Religion, 0
I lost a friend today. The same one that I have been blogging about in my two previous blogs....
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Not feeling well
Jessealuvseashells, , OCD, Anxiety, Depression, Medication, Sleep Disorders, 1
Hey everybody. I'm a little nervous and frusterated (what else is new lol). But I might have mentioned in...
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Spotting a tribe member…
Headheight, , OCD, OCD, 4
The other day I was in a train station in the Sydney CBD, and went up to one of...
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Enriching thoughts
Jc110488, , OCD, Anxiety, Forgiveness, Grief, Personality Disorder, Religion, Self Esteem, Sleep Disorders, 0
ENRICHING THOUGHTS The most destructive habit ………………. Worry The greatest joy ……………………….. Giving The greatest loss …………………… ...
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Zelda and ocd. because why not?
Alexandria, , OCD, Medication, OCD, Therapy, 5
Living with OCD was never supposed to be easy. Life in general tended to be a pain in the...
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A long time coming.
ZackP, , OCD, Bipolar, Depression, OCD, Relationships, Weight Loss, 3
Well I should have known I'd end up back here sooner or later. My last blog post was about...
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Freaky Days…
Adra, , OCD, Career, 1
So anyway…I’ve started working at this new homeless centre, which provides affordable accommodation for 16-25 year old homeless. It’s...
There was only one thing I didn't tell her. I just don't have the courage to let anyone know that yet but the rest went well. I have to say joining the OCDtribe was the best thing I ever did next to asking for help from medical professionals. I get support in my daily life but it's nice knowing that I'm not the only one going through this. It's nice not to feel alone. THANK YOU!
It can be very hard to discuss certain ocd fears. Hope you will eventually be able to tell her about all of them. I know you will do it!