I had a recent interview for a job that would require a lot less driving. It was a work from home position and that to me just sounded absolutely ideal. Unfortunately, I was notified that I didn't get the job & felt crushed. I reached such a low point, feeling trapped in a job that causes so much stress & feeling like things would never get better again. After spending two days bawling my eyes out after work, I talked with my husband and tried to make a plan of how to change things.

I was able to go to the doctor and am so optimistic that I'll beable to start "living" again instead of just "existing." I am starting out on a very small dose of Prozac & will gradually increase under guidance from my family MD(if you'll remember, it had worked wonders but dose increased to the point of racing thoughts which led to my discontinued use). I'm so happy to try it again because I know that it lessened my need to react on compulsions and made me feel betteroverall. I have been on it for about 4 days now. The first couple of days were really kind of rough. I had the worst headache that just would not let up. Today is the first day that I woke up without a headache. I haven't had a need to leave the house recently since it's the weekend so not sure how it is affecting my most serious OCD issues; however, I do notice an improvement already in my ability to get out of bed & do things. I've been cleaning the house today and so far, my OCD has been manageable in this area & I've had enough energy to keep going. I understand that part of it is probably due to my new attitude & the idea that medication will help me, but I really do feel like I'm starting to see changes in managing my OCD/depression.I am taking steps in the right direction & it feels good!