So, my mom called me this morning, things are really getting out of hand.  If you don\’t know what\’s already going on then read my first blog “Picking up the pieces” to learn the whole story.

So, mom gets up and gets kids ready for school. She lives about 30 minutes away and has to drop my son off first then wait 45 minutes before she can drop my daughter off at her school. Usually she goes to a local coffee shop and sits there and waits. This morning my daughter got upset because she wanted a donut and a drink and my mom told her all she could have was water. This made my daughter very angry (she has autism) and she started screaming, knocked over a napkin holder, threw my moms coffee, and embarrassed my mom so she ended up leaving and just sitting in the car with my daughter which was when she called me and had me talk to my daughter to calm her down.

Things would be easier if I could do something to help but my hands are tied. According to CPS I am not allowed to have unsupervised visits with the kids which I find totally ridiculous. Their treating the assault on my son as if my husband and I were the ones who beat him up and not the kid up the street. At court the judge even read in the report that the police were called to my house to investigate an alleged assault on my 12 yr old son. Yeah, I\’m the one WHO called THEM! So, I was standing up for my child, I was trying to protect him, and now I\’m the one in trouble. It makes no sense to me. But, at any rate, my mom is slowly losing her shit. My dad told me that shes on the verge of a nervous break down and the courts just have no idea how hard this is on everyone. If I was having depression issues and trouble dealing with my daughter, how do they think my mom is going to be able to handle her?

So, my mom called the CPS case manager and told her that she just can\’t do it anymore and she wants her to find another place for my daughter to stay. The problem is, there is no place. They literally have no available families to take her that are trained and certified to care for a child with this degree of special needs. I\’ve done what I was told to do, the house is now clean, safe, there are no bugs, no trash, (we never had bugs) the cat boxes are clean, the smell is gone, the dishes are done, the fridge is clean, the kids rooms are cleaned. The only thing I need to do still is shampoo the carpets, wash the walls and wash the windows. I called CPS and told them all of this and they said that they would come by to do an inspection sometime next week. By next week my mom could be in a nut house!

I honestly just don\’t know what to do at this point. I\’ve been cooperative, I\’ve done everything expected of me. I feel enormous guilt over putting my mom in this situation but my hands are tied.  If they would at least let me have unsupervised visitation I could help with transporting the kids, and give my mom a few hours break every night or every other night so that she\’s not so stressed and maybe she and my dad could go out and do something. Our CPS case manager is really nice. She\’s been doing what she can to help us out, shes really adamant about getting the kids back in the home, it just seems like they are dragging their heals and it\’s making a bad situation worse. I don\’t know, I guess I just needed to vent and get my frustrations out.  I think I\’ll call my lawyer and see if there is anything she can do about getting me unsupervised visits. It\’s all I know to do at this point.