Hello! Please correct me if I’m wrong, but you using terms like math and social studies is leading me to think you’re possibly in middle school or early high school? Those self-realization prompts classes had always threw me off, I relate to that. Deep class conversations lead me to feeling some sort of emptiness, but I can’t explain it. Your symptoms of conflicting emotions definitely could be a sign of depression. I’m sad for no reason sometimes. I’m told that I’m very privileged and fortunate, I’m not physically ill, and all of that, so I should be happy. However, life is hard for everyone in their own ways, regardless of age, gender, wealth, race, etc. Your decrease in schoolwork completion and motivation is a sign of depression as well, but failing one math test is okay and you’ll learn from that failure. I suggest seeking some support from people you’re close to in your life who are trustworthy. If you don’t have that kind of support, I also suggest reaching out to a teacher or school counselor. I wish I didn’t ignore my depressive symptoms before the extremes happened, so I hope this can help even just a little bit. Stay strong, I believe in you!