I’m not even sure what is in my own brain anymore. I just logged back onto this just hoping to find someone to talk to but the site has changed so much. I was rereading my old posts. My mind set hasn’t changed much. Now I’m married with 2 kids and still feel like the world is on my shoulders. I’m starting to go numb. I just can’t keep doing this. How am I supposed to be a good mother when I can’t even think straight. I don’t want my kids to have to suffer because I’m broken. I spend all my time trying to be what my husband wants and my kids need that I have gotten lost along the way. Baby is struring so maybe later or tomorrow I will be able to try again to get some stuff off my chest. I just feel so alone in this world.
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Just Ask
Countrygirl2461, , Depression, Obesity, Relationships, Sex Therapy, Sleep Disorders, Suicide, 0
Just askIt's a simple taskI'd tell you the storyOf a girlWho sits up all nightStruggles and fightsNot to commit...
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First blog
mentalhell, , Depression, Anxiety, Career, Depression, Relationships, 0
Ok so this is my first blog. I had no idea what to put as my user name but...
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Falling apart
HotMessExpress, , Depression, Career, Depression, Relationships, 0
I know it has been a long time since I've been on here. It's mainly because I forgot my...
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Response to a Comment
arcania, , Depression, Child, Depression, Religion, 1
In my last blog post regarding empathy, I received this comment: "don't make the mistake of thinking that people...
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Identity
arcania, , Depression, 0
I am thinking about getting a haircut and it reminded me of the times when I was younger and...
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Just Another Fish
KnockedDown, , Depression, Anxiety, Depression, Grief, Relationships, Religion, Social Anxiety, Therapy, Weight Loss, 3
Trying to find a reason to make myself believe my life has meaning. I am perhaps having some sort...
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“And, leaving me to meditate, upon that., simplet twist of fate…” – “Simple Twist of Fate”
thebadkitty, , Depression, Addiction, Anxiety, Bipolar, Depression, Obesity, PTSD, Suicide, 1
"I’m sitting here in the boring room It’s just another rainy Sunday afternoon I’m wasting my time I’ve got...
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All alone I fall to pieces,
Deesh, , Depression, Addiction, Depression, Sleep Disorders, Suicide, 1
The songs I'm currently listening to are: Puddle of Mudd-Blurry Alice in Chains-Junkhead Harry Nilsson- Without You Velvet Revolver-...
I understand exactly how you feel! I am in the same shoes. I try hard to hide my broken self from my kids and try to be the wife my husband wants me to be. It is really hard and it does get lonely. ☹️
I get it. I want to be a good partner but I always feel like I annoy my partner
I’ve definitely been in a similar position before. You realize that a wife is someone you have to be for your husband, a mother is someone you have to be for your children, but who are you for yourself? I hope you find peace, clarity, and self discovery soon <3