I’m not even sure what is in my own brain anymore. I just logged back onto this just hoping to find someone to talk to but the site has changed so much. I was rereading my old posts. My mind set hasn’t changed much. Now I’m married with 2 kids and still feel like the world is on my shoulders. I’m starting to go numb. I just can’t keep doing this. How am I supposed to be a good mother when I can’t even think straight. I don’t want my kids to have to suffer because I’m broken. I spend all my time trying to be what my husband wants and my kids need that I have gotten lost along the way. Baby is struring so maybe later or tomorrow I will be able to try again to get some stuff off my chest. I just feel so alone in this world.