Here we are…..

Time- 6:56 pm

How am I doing?

– sentimental

– having fond thoughts of him

– wishing he would contact me

I try to go to be early and sleep through this evening “emotional time.”   It doesn’t work though.

I suspect that there is a connection between him and I that is stronger than no contact and the long distance.  .  I feel him with me in my heart.  He is in my thoughts.   I cried a few tears a little bit ago

I miss him.

Yet, I have no examples of him showing that he loved me in actions back when things were “easy “

He opted to destroy / shred my heart and then propose when I was was engaged to someone else.

My heart hurts