I’d say my anxiety is significant. I tried to help the HR with locating a paycheck. I talked to the person missing the paycheck because, I thought maybe I sent it out in the mail when it came to the business.

I got an email just moments later about confidentiality and expectations and reprimanding me for talking to the coworker

I don’t think this is a place I’m going to remain. I have been here for four years. It will be five next month but it doesn’t mean that I want to do this. (Be treated like this) I can’t get rid of  codependency no matter how much recovery I have in. I was only looking out for the coworker. I just asked them to look in thier mailbox. You would have thought I did something dramatic. I just can’t handle all this depression much longer. I feel like ending my life most days

I keep hanging on hoping it will get better but I don’t feel like it will be any different. I really lost my heart when I lost my heart to that person I was engaged to. I just haven’t been the same.