Its just so funny how things can fall appart in so short amount of time.At work today I almost get kicked out. There was a protest march, the police blocked all the roads. So I get stuck in the car for 2h, and the meeting that was acorded between my boss and a new client was canceled. -- Boss says that was my fault. I never let this things in, shit happens, but this time was too much. -- Then went home, and evryone seems to be so fucked up. Evryone yelling at evryone. Mad. Hostile. I dont expect nothing from the world, but at least I hope to have peace when I arrive to my home. They have been like this, since I was born. But it keeps getting more and more darker. -- Since I broke up with my gf 2 years ago, evrything is just being destroyed. Almost got no friends either. So my social life is reduced to work mates and drinking mates. -- I promissed myself not to do this again. I started snorting snow again. Fuck it. Some habits are hard to forget huh? Sometimes I think its okay to destroy yourself to reborn like a fenix. Get drunk, cry, get snowblind, cry more, lay in the bed all day because there is no energy/will to do any shit. -- Sometimes I want to not exist anymore, or die,... but that would be too easy. We must suffer more for our sins. Shitty enviroment im in... Fuck me. -- This year, started so good, I almost started to feel happinesse again. But I was a fool, happinesse, love, joy,... just chemicals in our brain, they come and go like a b**ch. They are reserved for a few people in the world who found a meaning to this, confusing, life. -- Dont know why even I am writing this shit. You guys have your own problems. This may help someone. Some people, feel better when they see someone more fucked than them. -- Have a nice day
