I was diagnosed with OCD a few years ago, the thoughts usually target relationships. I have always dreamt of being in love, getting married, and having children. Yet somehow my OCD would convince me not to enter relationships and I'd have to experience some level of anxiety about dating during the start. I have been dating someone for the past 6 months and it's very serious. For a long time, I had anxiety like "oh I must want to end it, he must not be right" etc. but I was very good about dealing with my OCD and embraced our relationship. We just went abroad for a week together and I started to worry about him checking out other girls, instead of letting it go and ignoring it. I also found out he contacted his ex about helping her with some mission trip she was going on, but hid it from me and told me he wouldn't have told me because I would have been upset. So I worry about what else he'd hide. He's usually so loving towards me and is very sweet, but seems so distant lately. However it may be due to the fact that he knows about my OCD and it worries him.
Unfortunately, my anxiety and OCD have gotten much worse. I can't pay attention in my doctorate classes because I keep thinking about how other girls could be much prettier and funnier than me, even though I'm usually very confident that I'm a pretty, nice, and outgoing girl. I don't know why my OCD is so strong right now but I burst into tears over little things and over analyze lots. My counselor suggested that I call my doctor to see if he would increase the dosage of my Celexa from 20mg to whatever he saw fit.
I'm feeling so depressed, crazy, and like I'm not enough. How do I deal?