I can completely understand and relate to the alone feeling. When I started letting people know, some of them said similar things, but for some reason I still felt alone. Whether or not I want to believe it, they never truly knew me and only the facade I lived and it is a lot to unpack for anyone. My brother and mother found out in… not the best terms, and my brother did not speak to me, until my Mom told him to. My wife and I are also on rocky terms because depending how far I go with this, she might not follow because “you’re not the person that I married”

Right now I’m trying to figure out who I am and have made some progress. I’ve had a name in mind for a LONG time and I had my best friend on a random day of her choosing refer to me as it, and I knew it was my name. That name is Emilie (French version of Emily) and I’m in the process of figuring out of I’m gender fluid being both myself and Emilie, or if I want to be full on Trans.

Do you have a name in mind? If so are you comfortable enough to share it? Either way, I hope you get closer to yourself in a safe space that you are free to be just yourself.