With my OCD one of my things is praying, i love God and i don't think praying is a bad thing i jus do it A LOT, its hard for me to watch the news b/c i feel like if i see a story about someone dying or getting hurt or something like that i feel like i have to pray about it sometimes right after i hear it b/c i have bad thoughts until i do then i feel bad after i pray b/c i feel like even though praying isn't bad i did it mostly b/c of my anxiety and i feel like that was wrong and like i offended God, and everynight before i go to bed i pray jus about lots of things but i have gotton myself n this like patteren a repetitive one where i jus mostly feel like i am repeating myself b/c there are certin things that i say n my prayer that i say everynight like the same way and i jus feel like even tho i mean those things it dosn't come out that way u know like i am jus saying it to say it and i feel like i am a bad person most of everyday i think i am offending God or someone sometimes even people who have passed away, sometimes after i have had a bad thought or as i am having a bad thought and even as i am writing this i feel like i am laughing just on the inside tho i feel like i am laughing at God or the thought that i am thinking it seem to happen more the more offensive the thought might be u know its so confusing like i don't think i would intenionly laugh at that but i don't know i get so confused sometimes and the thoughts that i think i don't know y i would think some of the things that i do it's just so hard! plez give me your feed back on this cuz i'm jus at a lost i don't like bothering my mom with this stuff i ask her all day long for reassurance and i cry a lot she dosn't like to see me cry she wants me to be happy and not down all the timeb/c of OCD and i don't want to keep crying and being down, thanks for reading it means alot really cuz i wrote so much and u took the time to read this it is almost 1:00am and i am super sleepy sorry for rambling!