With my OCD one of my things is praying, i love God and i don't think praying is a bad thing i jus do it A LOT, its hard for me to watch the news b/c i feel like if i see a story about someone dying or getting hurt or something like that i feel like i have to pray about it sometimes right after i hear it b/c i have bad thoughts until i do then i feel bad after i pray b/c i feel like even though praying isn't bad i did it mostly b/c of my anxiety and i feel like that was wrong and like i offended God, and everynight before i go to bed i pray jus about lots of things but i have gotton myself n this like patteren a repetitive one where i jus mostly feel like i am repeating myself b/c there are certin things that i say n my prayer that i say everynight like the same way and i jus feel like even tho i mean those things it dosn't come out that way u know like i am jus saying it to say it and i feel like i am a bad person most of everyday i think i am offending God or someone sometimes even people who have passed away, sometimes after i have had a bad thought or as i am having a bad thought and even as i am writing this i feel like i am laughing just on the inside tho i feel like i am laughing at God or the thought that i am thinking it seem to happen more the more offensive the thought might be u know its so confusing like i don't think i would intenionly laugh at that but i don't know i get so confused sometimes and the thoughts that i think i don't know y i would think some of the things that i do it's just so hard! plez give me your feed back on this cuz i'm jus at a lost i don't like bothering my mom with this stuff i ask her all day long for reassurance and i cry a lot she dosn't like to see me cry she wants me to be happy and not down all the timeb/c of OCD and i don't want to keep crying and being down, thanks for reading it means alot really cuz i wrote so much and u took the time to read this it is almost 1:00am and i am super sleepy sorry for rambling!

5 Comments
  1. thewillow 12 years ago

     Honey, it sounds like you have a lot of guilt mixed in with your OCD… Do you see a therapist? If not, you should. *hugs* PM me any time if you need to chat.

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  2. monalisa 12 years ago

    Ur problem is very similar to that of mine. I can understand how u feel Bt dont worry u r not offensive  neither r u offending God. Just do what u feel to bt dont feel guilty…bcs everyone of us here knows that its our OCD that makes us feel guilty most of the time while there is actually nothing to be guilty of  in real. So try to forget ur guilt and be happy.  have a nice day ahead

     

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  3. Wkumar 12 years ago

    There is nothing to feel ashamed of in your fear.  I pray as well often as a form of release to deal with my own OCD.  God understands what is in our heart and He knows what is real. Don’t feel bad.

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  4. apehangmom 12 years ago

    your a good person who has a HYper thinking problem. You sound like your not felling well or tired in your case…  The news is hard to watch… We have been taught to pray…. and that helps us to control a suituation that we cannot even fathom trying to help or fix.  Prayer is something that works but we dont know how…and it feels good.  I dont htink your bad I think that your OCD is acting up and you need a relaxation teqnique or meds to help you throught the hard itme .

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  5. ancientgeekcrone 12 years ago

    I think you sound confused.  We do pray, because it gives us comfort,  If you feel guilty  for getting comfort , I’d say that was your ocd taking the comfort you gained away from you. God is bigger than that, he doesn’t offend and he doesn’t withold.  You got these ideas from reading biblical tract.  Remember that all that  has been written  about God was written by a human being just like us.  You got their interpertation of God.  You don’t have to accept such an interpertation.  I think your ocd demands  you do. Treating ocd is not my realm.  But I have a suggestion.  After your prayers, get  pen and paper and write yourself a gratitude list.  I am grateful that I can see, breathe, eat , get comfort from my prayers.  You get the idea.  Make the list as long as you can, I am grateful that  the sun came up or I’m grateful it rained, we needed the rain and so forth.  Keep writing your gratitude list until  you feel its peace. Your last sentence might be I am glad I found  peace.

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