So things are kinda messed up right now. After the new guy (NG) disappeared, I did some digging and found a Facebook profile that listed him as in a relationship. At first I was angry but then I immediately calmed down and decided to ask him about it. It just didn't seem to fit his personality, the idea that everything had been an act.

He apologized, told me it was complicated, to assume that he's just an asshole, and forget about him because it was easiest. But I wasn't happy with that, it didn't seem fair after everything that had happened. So I explained that it felt like I did something wrong and I needed to know what happened. He told me that I didn't do anything wrong and that it was an on/off relationship that she "fools" him back into all the time.

After learning that it had nothing to do with me, I felt better. I had really only been afraid that I messed up somehow so once that was out of the way, I told him we could still be friends if he'd like. Contact took a turn for the worst after that, though. So then I thought he wasn't talking anymore because he had changed his mind and when I asked about that yesterday morning, I upset him. I said, "I have this bad feeling that you are avoiding me now :(" and he responded, "I really don't appreciate that". I told him that I didn't mean to offend him and he replied that he's been busy. He's not even in the state, he's visiting his grandmother who is very ill, and his "ex or whatever" (his words, not mine) is threatening to kill herself so the last thing he needs is another girl accusing him of things.

I apologized profusely, told him that I didn't know all that was going on, and he answered back with something about not assuming things because it hurts peoples' feelings. So since then I've only sent him one more message, to say good morning like usual, and that's it. I haven't heard back so now I can't tell if he's still just stressed or if he's also angry with me. I don't intend to ask but it's frustrating because I may have just blown things up without even needing to. It sounds like he went quiet like he did because of his grandmother and breaking up with his ex – not because he was going back to her. So there I come charging in, misinterpreting everything, and ugh…whatever. Just whatever. I know it's not all my fault but shit…

*pulls out hair*