It’s almost midnight and I can’t sleep, again. I’ve taken melatonin and anxiety meds . I just read someone’s blog about less sunshine means more anxiety so I’ll drag myself out to walk the dog on the beach tomorrow morning for while. Hopefully that will help. I need to get back to doing that every day, it was really helping my mood.
Tonight I had dinner with my 2 older sisters and one older brother. We always have great conversations about our past and upcoming travel plans, art shows etc. they are smart, funny, wonderful. But, I’m always depressed after seeing them, I don’t know why.
Tonight I have anxiety for no reason I can think of and I think that’s what’s keeping me from sleeping. I’m so tired though. I am very excited about my son practicing for his entrance exam for a college program though. At 25, he has found his career choice. He looked so good today, and happy and seemed to be feeling good in his own skin. It really made my day. He is taking control of this and is gently telling me that he’s got it, not to worry. Sweet kid, man, I mean. I am so very very lucky to have him and his sister . They really are better than I ever imagined, and I imagined pretty great.