I feel like I need to talk this out and put my feelings out. I’m currently dogsitting my aunt’s dog while she’s not home and I just gotten this sudden bout of anxiety that came over me. I don’t know if it’s because I’m alone and nervous about it or if it’s just other stuff festering and this is just pushing it over the edge. I’ve just recently graduated from college after being in college for 8 years and there’s a lot going on. I have studying to do for a test to get my license and I feel like i’m underprepared. There’s this fear that i’ll fail the test or won’t be able to get a job. The future honestly scares me because it’s so unknown. I just wish I was more sure of myself and maybe I’d feel better. I keep telling myself to take deep breaths and just take it one day at a time but it’s difficult at times. Then being at my aunt’s house alone I feel like I have no one to distract me from myself and I don’t like it.

Update: My anxiety got the better of me and I decided to go home for a little while in hopes that i’ll be able to calm down. I don’t live far from my aunt’s house so i’m hoping this helps even though part of me feels like a failure for having to come home. I feel like I should have stuck it out but at the same time I feel like I also need to do what’s best for myself and if that means going home for a little while then maybe that’s what I needed to do. I hope I’m not looked down upon because of this though.