So I was heating up my spagetti and everything went fine… Until I went to place a breadstick within the microwave and my hand lightly crazed the top of the microwave… AND A CLUSTER FUDGE OF ANTS ATTACKED!!! My spagetti was surprisingly fine but they got BOTH of the breadsticks…. 🙁 i wanted those…. I cleaned up the mess and the microwave (because it was just terrible. Like no wonder why they gathered up in there). But now I feel like ants are running up all over on me. I'm about to take a shower…. This is like a yearly problem over here so I shouldn't be surprise. I'm looking up some remedies and such that can kill them. I have found two which seem promising. I just need the go ahead from mother because I do so… I also have dishes that I need to do.

I feel like… I dunno… I feel like I'm growin gup. Because… I dunno. It's like my whole mind set on everything has just changed… Like when I need to get things done, I get them done. I don't even like stop and complain. Like I dunno. It's hard to explain i suppose. i just feel… different. Next year I will be a senior (with the hardest schedule that anyone has everyone seen) and I'm just… I'm so not ready…. Like I have been waiting to turn eighteen and to move out for like I don't even know how long. But now that it is coming up closer every day, I just get more scaried. I'm not prepared. I don't have a job. I don't have a car. I'm not mentally prepared. I want to blame it all on my mother but like, I'm tired of blaming people for my problems. Like sure she has made everything difficult, but like what parents don't?! I don't know. I'M NOT PREPARED and I'm scared…

I dunno. I need to work and be productive. yay…