Tonight I am watching the snow fall under the street lights from the inside of a place that feels much too nice to feel this low.  I’m here working my second job, pushing myself harder than I know is healthy, but I’m not really sure what else to do.  I’m lost, I don’t know how to be everything for everyone while still keeping enough of myself for me.  So I lose myself in work, and in music never stopping long enough in one spot to dig deep.  Even then though, I never really am far from my broken spots.  I don’t know how to fix me, how to be at peace again instead of always feeling like I’m trying to catch up.  I haven’t figured it all out yet, but I will continue to try.  I want to and need to, so many people depend on me.  I’ll get this one step at a time.