So today I start the Ritalin. To be honest I'm quite nervous because he said it might make me really anxious. He said that different people react to it differently, but hopefully this would help bring me up some. I hope so too.

I had a new friend tell me about endogenous depression…interesting concept and I think it's very likely. It pretty much means that the depression is part of the person's genetics ~ there are not necessarily triggers because it's part of their genetic makeup and can be brought on at any time by nothing particular. It's a chemical imbalance in the brain that genetics have created. I knew some of this but I still found the article really interesting ~ I always like to know more about what's happened to me. If you're interested in reading more just google "endogenous depression".

Well it looks like the bike ride is out for the morning.  🙁 It's rainy here and I don't have rain gear for riding. You'd think that with me living in Florida I would at least have a raincoat, but nope, lol. Guess it would be a good idea to get one.

I just got finished putting Zachary on the bus. Now there's no one here except me and the animals. I'm currently sitting on the porch marveling at the tenacity of the birds ~ they don't care about getting wet when there's food available. Right now there's a gray squirrel sitting in the feeder ignoring me even though I'm only 3 feet away from him, he's chowing down on all the corn in the feeder. My Mom hates the squirrels, but I really like them because they're cute and really smart. They're also bold. I think this is the same squirrel that came up and ate while I was sitting out here journaling yesterday. Cute little bugger.

I had the hardest time falling asleep last night! I don't know why, normally I fall asleep pretty fast ~ my problem is staying asleep. I'm problem just nervous about the new medication, which I have to go take soon. I had no other concerns on my mind really, other than trying not to snore, lol.

I didn't get the vacuuming done yesterday so I guess I'll do it today. There's one thing on my to-do list! I've also got to take Zachary's registration for summer camp back to them, there's No. 2. You have to apply early or else you miss out completely on it. It's only $60 a week compared with the $150 week we were paying his daycare. It's put on by the parks and recreation from the county here and it's a really good program. They do all sorts of stuff with the kids and they also take them on field trips too.

Well, I guess I should go eat something so I can take my meds. I'll let you know how I feel in a little while…we'll see how it goes. I'm cautiously optimistic!

Have a beautiful morning all!