Hi, It’s VioletStars.

This is my first blog and I’ll be using it as a way to document my OCD weekly and my day-to-day struggles. I am specifically dealing with contamination OCD.

Recently, my family and I celebrated Thanksgiving and since we don’t do a traditional Thanksgiving meal, we did hotpot. At first, I was a bit hesitant because the last few times I ate hotpot, my stomach didn’t feel so good. I thought it might have had something to do with the meat we put in it and maybe it wasn’t fully cooked or something.

Anyways, this time, we split the hotpot into two sections. One was for vegetables only and one was for meat. That way the two would not mix. However, what triggered my OCD was not that. It was the fact that there was raw meat near me. It was not touching me, by just the sight of it made me feel so disgusted that it was almost like it was touching me. Obviously this was all in my head, but it prevented me from having a nice family dinner on Thanksgiving. Eventually I was able to get over it though and tried focusing on just enjoying myself.

After dinner, we had dessert and as someone who LOVES sweets, it took my mind off almost all of my anxieties and worries. Then we watched a movie together for the first time in a while, which was really nice.

Overall, it was a rocky start, but it got better. So I have to say it was a pretty good Thanksgiving this year. For the most part at least.