Hey guys. I’m creating this blog because I struggle with depression and anxiety. I was prescribed medicine 2 years ago but never took it because I was scared. Now everything is so much worse. I get so depressed I think about hurting myself or killing myself. I get so depressed I can’t even get out of bed for school. Most of my problems come from my anxiety. I have panic attacks at least once a week. I can’t breathe, I can’t stop crying, and I can’t stop shaking for 1-3 hours. I get so tired after my attacks are over that I can’t even get up. Fortunately, I have a very understanding and patient boyfriend who will hold me or sit with me the entire time and help me breathe. I used to smoke weed when I had attacks and they’d go away almost immediately but I’m trying to focus on school now.  My anxiety causes my boyfriend and i to fight a lot. For example, he’ll be hanging out with his friends and I’m at home freaking out he’s cheating or doing something he should even though he’s never given me a reason to think that. Part of me knows he’s not doing anything and then part of me is like “but… what if he is?” He understands it’s my anxiety and always reassures me everything is okay. I don’t feel like myself anymore. I don’t hang out with my friends because it takes too much energy. I’m just tired of feeling this way. Every day is a challenge. I know I need to go see my doctor but I don’t have insurance now. Plus it makes me anxious thinking about calling and making an appointment. What are some ways you deal with your anxiety or depression? Thanks.