I'm not anxious, but I'm scared that I will be tomorrow. A job interview and my mum leaving on holiday all in one morning. I know I will be fine but it doesn't stop me worrying that my anxiety will get bad.

I'm really excited for my interview, I just hope this lasts until the morning and I can be my normal self in the interview, talkative and bubbly, and I don't get anxious and sit there wiping the sweat off my hands and having no idea what to say.

Today started off rubbish, I just couldn't find the motivation. I lay in bed until about 4pm putting off everything I had to do.. I did a big clean yesterday so there wasn't much to do around the house. I need to go to the bank because I am horrendously broke but I couldn't face it. My mum came home from work at 4 and made me get out of bed and walk the dogs with her, said it would make me feel better. She was so right, that little push made me feel so much more chilled out.

I don't know whether I have mentioned this in a previous blog but I do some work doing clubs with children and young people with various learning disabilities and downs syndrome. I only do a Tuesday evening at a youth club, and a Friday where we do a sports club. I adore this job.

I was there this evening after spending about an hour earlier this afternoon thinking of various excuses I could use to get out of it, but I made it there. We usually just play pool, football. sit around talking or whatever. Made cakes with a couple of the young people. I have such a laugh, its my perfect job and I would love to do this full time. I think when I have the funds I will study towards this dream.

Now, its time for bed.. once I've ironed my interview clothes! Ahhhhhhhh!

I hope you're all having a fab morning/afternoon/evening!

Love xo