This feeling of having no energy is so tiring, it physically hurts to do anything. Even tho i have a lot of physical energy. And this feeling of every single one of my bones feeling so heavy is making me feel like I just don’t want to move. Without feeling lost in my body of nothing. I also feel so tired I could sleep forever but I still can’t seem to get any sleep without the nightmares taking over my brain. This shit sucks. It feels like the end of the world, even tho I know I know it’s not. I just feel like I can’t do anything any more without all of these thoughts of death and all of these feelings that control my body, my brain, my soul, even my thoughts. It feels like I’m no longer myself. All the things I liked to do I no longer have any interest in them. Even just doing this is putting me in so much pain because I used to love writing stories, poems and songs for my friend that loves to sing but I have not done that in a long time. I miss the person that didn’t care about what others thought of her. She was a strong, brave, smart, beautiful, caring, confident, outgoing person. But now that’s just all gone she has disappeared from my eyes. I wish people could know her because she was so good. But sadly she is no longer alive. She died a long time ago trying to fight the monsters in my mind. She was the strong part of me as this part of me is the weak one.
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That's great to know mom..
Kazey, , Depression, Child, Relationships, Stress, Weight Loss, 10
Gawd. I think i might be starting to hate my mom. i know its worng to hate, dislike is...
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Strange feeling
SadScot, , Depression, Addiction, Anxiety, Depression, Sleep Disorders, 0
I went out to get my daily dose of nicotine earlier and had a strange sensation, I get panic...
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Math Class
bthere4mi, , Depression, Anxiety, Obesity, Sleep Disorders, Therapist, 0
Today during Math class I had a panic attack. Well a pre-panic attack. Everyone around me was talking, the...
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Families
Lonewolf1970, , Depression, 2
Hello folks. I gotta tell you families, sometimes, can make you feel lower than anything. I am now on...
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As We Move Forward
Diana, , Depression, Anger, Borderline Personality Disorder, Child, Depression, Grief, Suicide, 0
I’ve never been the prettiest, or the smartest. I’ve been called the nicest, but too often it’s just an...
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Coping Skills
artice0120, , Depression, Depression, 2
Hey hey! Recently I just went through a really hard time and wanted to show some of my coping...
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My sick child = crap from my supervisor
PrincessBooballaPuke, , Depression, Career, Depression, Sleep Disorders, 0
My son has had a cold for a few days now. It hit its peak last night and he...
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The Day Awaits (I Want To Tell It To F@ck Off)
thebadkitty, , Depression, 0
I am in pain, and don’t feel like doing anything. I have to go to outpatient soon (it’s earleir...