Hello folks. I gotta tell you families, sometimes, can make you feel lower than anything. I am now on my own, and have been for a few years, but my family can still make me feel like I am a piece of crap. I have done some growing here, the very hard way of reality hitting me in the face more than a few times. They say they have seen me grow and stuff, but they sure don’t know how to show it. When I am with them I feel like I am supposed to wait my turn and be a “good little boy” and just sit there like a lamp shade until they feel like I am worth their time to talk to. I know I have to regain their trust in me for a lot of crap I have done over the years, but you would thing that I would at least warrant some respect for being one of them. Sufficed to say there are trust issues that run both ways in this part of my life. I tell you I wonder about that sometimes with them. there are times when I just feel like telling most of them to go to hell for how I am treated. I feel like my opinions don’t mean a damn thing to them no matter what I say. I could be dead right and made to feel like I am somehow in the wrong for even speaking. I am trying to get better at expressing my feelings to them, but it doesn’t seem like the right time half the damn time, cause I only see them, for the most part, during family gatherings that I don’t want to be the downer for the whole thing. I have written to them in the past and I think I will, again, in the future to get some of these things straightened out, hopefully, but there are no guarantees that will happen or that they will even listen to what I have to say. I just wonder, sometimes, if I shouldn’t just cut all ties with my family and just leave them alone and vice versa. Families you can’t live with them and you can’t live without them.

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  1. lessthanthree 11 years ago

     I'm the youngest in my family and it feels like no one takes my opinion in. It's as if they still see me as a little girl. The only time they do enjoy talking to me, is complaining about me and the things I do.

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  2. snowdreamer 11 years ago

    ((((((((((( Mike ))))))))))

    My family doesn't believe in depression I may have told you that so when I'm around them I have to pretend to have a happy face and if I sit and don't say anything they attack me with 50 questions on how come I'm not talking to them.  I answered them last weekend that I won't be around to bother them I'm looking for a way out and another place to live maybe in another state.  I know how hard families can be and I hope yours realizes you are trying to make things better and cut out the bullshit.

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