I know it has been a long time since I've been on here. It's mainly because I forgot my username and I lost my laptop. It's in my apartment somewhere, I just don't know where so I guess my phone will have to do. Basically, I feel like a lot is falling apart. Just like my apartment, my life's a mess and I honestly have no clue how to fix it. After I turned 20 I signed up for some bar tending classes in a near by city and I was excited for a new job path. Well, somehow it wasn't enough to keep me going. It's been almost 6 months since I made a huge mistake and broke up with the love of my life. He won't take me back and I don't blame him, but it doesn't make it any easier. It's hard to get over someone I spent 2.5 years with… I kind of feel like he hates me now and I don't think there is anyone else out there for me which is a real downer. Then next Wednesday is 6 years since my fathers passing and that just tears me apart. Being a daddy's girl, I really miss him. Now moms moving out of my childhood house in 20 days and she'll be moving into a two bedroom condo for her and my brother which kind of hurts me but I guess since I moved out, I asked for it. Anyways, I've been feeling very down recently and after taking a little depression quiz online, I realized I can't remember the last time I was legitimately happy. So I've taken a leave from school and I'm going to spend some time to pull myself together. The problem is I need to get the drive and strength to do so. That's the part I lack. Well, wish me luck and I hope to blog some more. It seems to help.
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Alone.
ThatGirl, , Depression, Relationships, 0
So, I've come to a point where I honestly don't care about losing people anymore. They leave because I'm...
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Memories…
TearsOfAnAngel, , Depression, Anger, Depression, PTSD, Relationships, Religion, Therapist, 0
A very good frined of mine holly, is going through hell right now, even if she won't admit it....
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Dominatrix Photo Shoot / Visit To The Cheese State
thebadkitty, , Depression, Anxiety, 0
At my parents’ place in Wisconsin. I am glad to see them, but it isn’t easy being here. My...
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People
drummersrule029, , Depression, Anxiety, 0
People – By me People talk People laugh People whisper People don't care They are cold They do not...
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That one day
nat5678, , Anxiety, Depression, Anger, Anxiety, Child, Depression, Grief, Questions, Religion, 0
When I think about what happened with Justin, I get angry because he is the one who took it...
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Be honest with yourself
prayingdove40, , Depression, Domestic Abuse, Relationships, Social Anxiety, 1
It was long ago after a abusive relationship I Was BROKEN And IN DENIAL AT FIRST MY HAIR WAS...
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Why do ppl think…
Mz_Unda_Std, , Depression, Career, Child, 0
think they are entiled to act like assholes and that nobody will call them on it. I had an...
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The world can never hurt or dissapoint me
redhead20, , Depression, Religion, 0
I hate feeling so good in the day, because I feel so awful at night. The night makes me...