It was long ago after a abusive relationship I Was BROKEN And IN DENIAL AT FIRST MY HAIR WAS FALLING OUT AND I LOST MY APPETITE AND BEFORE I KNEW IT I WAS VERY SICK HAVING A HARD TIME BREATHING MY ROOM MATE WHO WAS MORE LIKE A BROTHER TO ME CONVINCED ME TO GO TO THE DOCTOR RELUNTILY I WENT IN THERE THE NURSES TOOK ONE LOOK AT ME AND RUSHED ME BACK THEY SAID MY FINGERS WERE TURNING PURPLE I BELIEVE MY OXYGEN IN TAKE WAS 72 PERCENT THEY PUT ME ON A OXYGEN MASK AND HAD TO BE SENT TI ICU UNIT I STAYED THERE FOR 6 Months I Had 0 T Cells AND WAID ONLY 90 POUNDS I HAD TO BE FED IN MY ARMS I HAD A ROOM MATE WHO I WASN'T Sure If WE Were Going TO Get A LONG SHE WAS GANGSTER LIKE AND I WAS SHY AND QUITE MY ROOM MATE BROUGHT ME MY VCR AND INDIAN MOVIE HE BROUGHT ME A LOT OF MOVIES AND CHOCOLATE DONUT AND BEFORE I KNEW it I GOT BETTER MY T CELLS WENT UP AND IT WAS SO INCREDIBLY HARD BUT GOD GAVE ME THE STRENGTH TO SETUP AND I DID IT WAS A VERY EXZOSTING LONG FRUSTRATING FIGHT I HAD TO REGAIN MY MUSCLES I WENT FROM A WHEELCHAIR TO CRUSHES TO A CANE THANK GOD FOR BEING THERE WITH ME AND SENDING A WONDERFUL FRIEND BROTHER ROOM MATE TO HELP ME GET THROUGH IT WELL AFTER THAT I MADE SURE I WILL NEVER LET MY SELF GET SICK LIKE THAT AGAIN AND YES GOD WAS THERE FOR ME GIVING ME THE WILL AND ENCOURAGEMENT TO KEEP FIGHTING I GOT THIS WAY MY SELF I DID NOT TAKE MY MEDS I SAID TO MY SELF I WANT TO LIVE LIKE EVERYONE ELSE OR NOT AT ALL WOW WAS I WRONG IT REALLY DID BRING ME CLOSER TO GOD AND GIVE ME MORE APPRECIATION FOR LIFE THANK YOU GOD I LOVE YOU AMEN
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Musings and Other Discontents
CHarl, , Depression, Anxiety, Bipolar, Career, Child, Depression, Relationships, Sleep Disorders, Therapist, Therapy, 0
Hola, hola. This is my first go at something of this nature, so I suppose its obligatory that I...
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Peace…For Now
CaTastrophe, , Depression, Child, Domestic Abuse, Religion, 0
Just a clarifier for those of you that were worried about my last blog… I’m not the violent one...
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Tried to bring up the blow out with my Mom
SecretLifeOfNAME, , Depression, Bipolar, Career, Obesity, Questions, Religion, Therapist, Weight Loss, 0
So, yesterday I tried to bring up to my mom that whole blow out we had and all I...
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BpdbBqD
elililly, , Depression, 0
had a meeting that went perfectly because i drank coffee. denise was very happy about that. being social makes...
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Back to Work
sadviolinist, , Depression, Anxiety, Child, Parenting, Sleep Disorders, 3
I'm nervous today…I go back to work this evening for the first time in 7 or 8 months. It's...
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Need help
MoonWolfEagle, , Depression, Bipolar, 1
Hello …….. I have to vent before i continue to be bent oh gracious me I did it again...
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I suppose it's been a while since I ranted…
Serrinatta, , Depression, Career, Child, Medication, 0
And lets, face it, all I do is rant here… Not sure why that's all I do, but it...
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Here I am again
between_extremes, , Depression, Career, Depression, Sleep Disorders, Suicide, 0
Here I am again… drinking Night Nighy tea after chugging bottled water after drinking too much red wine… hoping...
Amen….