I’ve been really down the past couple days. There is so much I need to do to prepare for getting out of the Navy, but I can’t seem to muster up the motivation to do much more than lay in bed all evening. I look around at what needs to be done here at the apartment and feel overwhelmed. There’s not really all that much to do, so I find that I’m frustrated that I can’t will myself to get it done. I think about everything I need to do in order to get a job lined up for when I get out of the Navy and again I get overwhelmed. At least there is actually a lot to do that I’m not very comfortable/confident about doing as far as that goes. My lack of money bothers and frustrates me. The fact that people owe me over $1000… I’m beginning to think that if I want to see any of the money I’m owed I’m going to need to take people to court. I can’t afford for people to owe me that much money right now. The prospect of taking them to court is very frustrating and stressful as well. Medical, at work, is dicking me around again. Apparently something was amiss with one of the tests they did today (it was a routine physical), so they did more tests and apparently only the doctor is "qualified" to discuss the results with me so no one will tell me anything about why they’re doing more tests. >_< The only thing positive I can see in my life right now is that I have family and friends that love me and have been there for me to vent to these past 2 days. I guess that’s pretty big, but all the frustration/stress is overshadowing that majorly at the moment. ;_;