So…. here lately… I've just felt so talentless…. I don't really know why but the feeling has always haunted me. I mean, i do most things well. I can write and draw and dance and people say I have a good voice. Although I just feel like I don't really excel in anything. People are always have that one talent. That one thing that they are so good at it gives them passion to change the world…. I don't have that one talent…. Which… I don't know… makes me feel… useless.

See, my brother is in to sports. My sister is a fashionista. My mom has a passion for motorcycles. My mom's boyfriend can drink a lot of beers, it should kill him. But me….. I don't really have anything…. My writing is okay but not the best. My singing is…. well, I never thought that I had a very good voice from the beginning but other people think that I do…. My drawing is a once in a blue moon kind of thing and I think I lost my touch for dancing…. I just… I don't have anything. No talent, no passion… And it's just…. it sucks…. I want a passion and a talent. I want to fit in with that crowd…. I mean, it is just me that can't seem to find her place in the world? I know I am only 16 but isn't this around the time that most people find out what their true passion is? What they excel at. I feel like the only thing I excel at is being a major pushover. And I really want to change that.

Well, there is one thing that I excel at I guess… but it's not really something a teenager should excel or 'have a passion' for….. I love kids. I have a wicked tolerance level so I can tolerate them more than most people and I just think that they are the cutest little things in the world. I like to hold them and play with them…. I just love kids….. But it's not like I love them so much that I want one right now…! Jeez they are a handful and expencive! (I spelled that wrong). I just want something that I can love to do on my free time, like a hobby. A kid is not the answer. But I don't really love anything else…. ugh…. so talentless…