This is my first blog ever, so i guess i'll get right to it. I have been an anxiety sufferer for 8 long eventful years. I am 26 years old and have been with my wife for 6 years. Together we have a 5 year old daughter, and one on the way. Anyway, I remember my first anxiety attack when i was 18. I thought I was having a heart attack. I was flooded with dread and just didnt know what was going on. The years to follow that event, my life was never to be the same. I was having at least 10 to 20 attacks through out the day, almost everyday. I constantly feel like I'm in a dream like state, and it's hard to concentrate sometimes. I'm always waiting for the next attack to sneak up behind me. It's always tapping on my shoulder, hovering over me. I notice everything about my body. Maybe a bit of a hypocondriac, Ive been to the doctor, emergency room, and other nerve specialists. Everyone says there is nothing wrong, and dont understand what im going through. Ive been treated like sh*t and sent away many times. I feel like im going to die at any moment. And i could deal with the panic attacks if i could just get some relief from the way i feel everyday. Always tired, dreaming but caught in a nightmare, heart palputating, getting dizzy and lightheaded, and the one thing i can think about is how im going to raise my family when i have lost touch with the real world. I am miles away in my own hell. But, not all days are bad. Every once in a while, i will have a good day. Sorry if i bored anyone, and i hope someone can give me any advice. Any at all. Thank you if you made it this far in my first ever blog.